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I think surgery is scary and confusing for anybody, so to have to face it with so much internal confusion, fright and uncertainty and no support from anybody in your life must make it far, far worse. I think you're showing a lot of courage in this ... especially when I think you went to have surgery a few weeks back, and it didn't work out for some reason...?

I agree with zh, hopefully you'll be able to work something out in your system so you all can cope. I'm not DID so this might be the wrong advice, and I don't know how much communication you have within your system, but perhaps you could keep the littles protected in a little room somewhere with things they like to occupy them, so they won't get quite so scared.

I can't remember when you wrote this, so if I've missed you and you're in surgery now, then good luck!

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