Your sessions aways sound so productive, Blue. You cover so much ground in each one.

I like what your son says: "this was the best day of my life!" Wow! We can learn a lot from that attitude. He sounds like a very special person, and if he says that every day, I agree with your T that he is not traumatized, but just very empathetic towards you.

All the things you say about your mother make me feel so sad that your mother was like that. How old were you when she died? Approximately, I mean, if you don't want to say exactly. Were you a child, teenager, or adult?

I wish I were seeing a T when my Mom was sick and dying so I would have said the "right" things. I loved her, but did not tell her. So much was left unsaid, which may be why I want to tell my T so much.

It sounds like ftt knows how to "take care of you" when you dissociate during the session, and also how to regulate your medicines. You sound calmer now. You're doing great work!