((((((((Bluey))))))))
That is a lot to cover in one night. May I sit with you a bit? I wish your cousin hadn't slapped you when you were trying to figure out if your mom had really died or not. I can understand needing physical proof. I've often thought about that (in advance) with my dad - needing physical proof to know this isn't just a stunt to get me to say things I wouldn't normally say, and then pop out and go Haaaa! *shiver*

Good that you are learning to trust people - you've several friends on that path with you, including me. Take good extra care of yourself in this time.
Many hugs...