Deli, I'm really worried. This is a serious medical matter.

I think you need to let your friends know what is going on in case something happens to you. If it's a medical situation, they need to give accurate info about you, and if personal behavior stuff, they should know that you're at risk for not being quite normal if your drug situation throws your body chemistry too far off.

If you think it's tough getting help from pdoc or other MD right now about this stuff, imagine what it'll be like in a foreign country where you don't speak the language, have family, etc. I think you should get thru to pdoc given the gravity of the multiple issues.