Hi ktbug

I can relate to your post very much, I'm the same way.

What the previous posters were saying is that you should see a psychiatrist (they prescribe medications, if necessary) as well as a therapist. The therapist may be a social worker or psychologist.

Personally, I'd recommend a therapist with a lot of experience in dealing with sexual abuse, personality disorders, and depression. I have tried many therapists over the years and have recently begun working on the core issues that I struggle with. DBT (dialectic behavioral therapy) is helpful for people like us. First, the DBT does recognize my traumatic past ~ rather than sweeping it under the rug. That is validating. While our emotions may be totally irrational, it is still how we feel. And we deserve to have those emotions validated, rather than feel ashamed or stupid for feeling that way. Second, I've slowly learned techniques to get me through those tough times that ordinarily get me to blow up. Third, we learn to build proper relationships ~ set appropriate boundaries and build self-esteem. Fourth, learning how to stay in the moment. Rather than ruminate over & over, getting ourselves even more upset.

Cognitive behavioral therapy is the main technique used nowadays ~ but it wasn't quite enough for me. They want to accept the past and move on to the future. I, however, struggle hard to accept my past. The CBT presumes that one can (or has) accept the past.

Hope that I didn't lose you by going off in a tangent. Sorry if I did! You're free to PM me if you have questions. I'd be happy to help if I can. Best wishes to you!