Many times, people who are kind of wondering where to start begin by contacting their community mental health center. Most communities that are large enough or if you live near a community that is large enough, have a mental health center run by either the city or the county and they have both at least one psychiatrist who prescribes medications and several psychologists and/or social workers/therapists. Usually what you do is call them and ask for an initial appointment for evaluation and they will set you up for an intake appointment. Then, they will determine what your major issues are and also whether or not you might benefit from a consult with the psychiatrist for medication and who of their therapists would be best suited for you based upon your major issues. Some therapists specialize in certain areas.

At least this is a place to start. In the process, you might meet other patients who know of other therapists who are really, really good and they recommend them word of mouth. That kind of thing happens all the time.

From what you say, I do agree with Shezbut about your prevous abuse being your main issue at this point. This kind of abuse causes what some refer to as PTSD or survivor's syndrome. It's quite complex and causes some major problems. No wonder you are struggling.

Please don't hesitate to get yourself some help. You deserve it. If we can help you in any other way, please let us know. Also, keep posting so we'll know how things are going. Hugs to you.