Ian,

Welcome back.

I wish that I could help you, but I know that no one can until you are willing to get better. Lots of people have tried, including me.

I still say that you are a good and decent person, with a lot of potential, and you are worth so much more than you will admit. You can have a good life if you are willing to make that choice.

Wendy

<font color=red>"Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing." -Harriet Braiker</font color=red>