Good morning today
Went for a walk down the beach with a friend at 5:30am. Was just lovely and he's the most understanding wonderful person that I know. Makes me laugh (best therapy of all).
Had coffee after and just sat and chatted for hours. He knows both me and Mark so it's easy to talk with him and also I trust him with my life, heart and soul.

I am okay. Staying at the house is fine. It has memories sure but really I don't think about it much anymore. It's my house now, my investment in the future.

I do still think about Mark but it's different. I am healing, I now know that I don't "need" him in my life. Today I don't even "want" him - in a relationship sense. He is trying to be friends and that's nice, I'll try too when I feel up to it. I love him, what he was not what he is now.

I'm making the decisions this time. I am sure that over time he will fade out of my life (not what I want but I can live with that). If he wants the friendship so much then he can be the one that fights for it. I've given all I can for the time being.

Am sure that there are still ups and downs, but for now I'm level