thank you shadow.
I found I can get some angry things out in poetry. Is that OK?
I wanted to write some angry letters but I don't know where to put them. I don't want to upset anyone but they are not about anyone on PC and I can't send them to the real people; Ruth and I talked about it and it would be cruel. Maybe I should just put them in the journal.
I liked the poems in the thread you linked to. I feel just like Vicki said when she wrote:
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My T is concerned, my person is concerned, the husband is concerned...I don't mean to worry or concern any one. I just don't want to be in this much confusion. I took all the pain for alot of years. I stayed inside for alot of time. Then T started asking questions. She woke me up. She started me talking. She made it all start over again. Now I feel like I am back to where I was before I went inside to stay for awhile. Now I seem to come out more than I want to. Why is this all happening?? T says it's progress and it is good. I feel so cold inside, numb and tired. I just can't keep going. Can I be dead???
Vicki

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That's how I feel too.

Ruth wants us to think nice things. But she also told me I needed to get my anger out. I'm not sure we can do both.

TBO