LLT- I love reading about dreams, I think they contain so much information about us. When I read your dreamn I felt sad. That you were waiting for T and she just didnt show up, you were left all alone. What did you feel while you were waiting? When you decided she wasnt going to come so you left? I odnt know what it means, but you do seem like you you were left alone, without T, without being told she wasnt going to be there. Maybe it means more processing of your leaving is necessary?

I love when I make T laugh. It is so...I odnt know...validating. Like I am funny and fun and I can even say something that T thinks is funny! I am great! LOL!

I think it is great you gave her your photoblog. I am a photographer, too. But I dont do it much anymore, I wish I could. But these pictures are YOU, they dont have to be good or bad, they are your images and reflect your vision. That is what is so wonderful about them and I know T will love the pics and not analyse them as professional or not.

I agree with wpowers, that maybe there is some grieving you need to go through and to allow yourself these emotions, they are real. And they wont go away.I know the times I have left someone or some situation that I didnt really want to leave, or wasnt quite ready to end, the person ALWAYS ends up regularly in my dreams. And in my passing thoughts.