HI (((((((((((((Moon)))))))))))))))))

I SO hear you on not having enough time to play. That was probably the one blessing of early therapy being so horrible for me. I was thisclose to completely losing it, and I HAD to do something to distract myself...so I let things GO, and I played Guitar Hero. A LOT. For a few months. I still fed people, and did school with them, and made sure there was clean laundry...but I didn't worry about the house being picked up, and I let a lot of things go that I would normally be right on top of. And the world didn't end, and I ended up finding out that Guitar Hero was actually really fun and that playing was okay.

I do think I've found a more balanced place now...with work AND play. It's still hard for me to just let things go....like yesterday I wanted to knit SO badly, but we are leaving town today and I worked all day long, getting the house put back together after Christmas and getting ready to go. I finally managed to knit a bit at 8 last night...and when I sat down to do it, it was such a relief. I probably could have found a way to do it earlier - I'm SURE I could have - but it's still hard for me to give myself permission to just relax and let things go a bit.

I do try to think of the example I'm setting for my kids. I want them to grow up and know that they can have that balance between work and play. I want them to see and example of healthy self-care. I'm in a band with some friends, and I like that they can see me do something that is fun for me, that's not all about them, and for them to know it's okay. The only thing I saw my parents do for "fun" was drink.

I hope you can find a little play time today, Moon