OOOWwww! Ow owow!!!!!!! I know that if I stick anything too far in my ear it hurts worse than anything else I can think of. And then to have a dumb doctor start that nonsense, grrrrrr! I am sorry about how ad the holiday was, my friend. I agree to see if there is some kind of clinic open, it is easier to really mess up the era canal than you would think. we have kids with both major ear wax and infections, so yep, we have gotten the lecture about them jamming stuff into their ears to get at the pain.

I really hope you can fnd someone to help with the ear. It doens't make things easier when one is depressed. Huggs, and i was thinking of you this Xmas. hang in there.