ok this sounds pretty obvious and I should have gotten it figured out long ago perhaps??. But the other day T said that instead of sedating myselfl with codiene I should self soothe.

When she said that at first I felt annooyed because its hard to do that when all your insides are introjected abusers...but its stuck with me and what I've noticed also is how things can excite me and then I get agitated and begin to spiral and trying to change that by avoiding one thing a day that normally triggers me. bUt this is all so hard...but I guess I've reached a place now where I'm willing to accept I need to take care a bit more, slow down, ask myself if this is in my best interests? all the while having that thing inside thats walking around tatttooed up to the eye balls and shooting at everything that moves within me. relate?