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Dec 26, 2009, 05:56 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2007
Location: UK
Posts: 587
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Originally Posted by Melbadaze
ok this sounds pretty obvious and I should have gotten it figured out long ago perhaps??. But the other day T said that instead of sedating myselfl with codiene I should self soothe.
When she said that at first I felt annooyed because its hard to do that when all your insides are introjected abusers...but its stuck with me and what I've noticed also is how things can excite me and then I get agitated and begin to spiral and trying to change that by avoiding one thing a day that normally triggers me. bUt this is all so hard...but I guess I've reached a place now where I'm willing to accept I need to take care a bit more, slow down, ask myself if this is in my best interests? all the while having that thing inside thats walking around tatttooed up to the eye balls and shooting at everything that moves within me. relate?
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Yeah, relate.
A phrase which helped me at times:
"a sadness from which great consolation springs" From this, also, (as wellas the M+Kl lit), I get that when I'm triggered, its a frantic feeling, which is in contrast to the legitimate sadness, the realistic compassionate grieving. I thnk the triggered expereince is when I'm on the recieving end of the INTROJECTS implications and intentions. Too often I'm living in frantic mode, so I'm reminding myself of what I need as I write. To face the reality and emormity, the fuse-blowing poignancy and tragedy is too much for a single human heart, so, that is where I have tried to allow God, or higher power, or universan powers, - whatever - to take care of and hold what I cant hold.
.. thanks for what you said, answering feels helpful for me too.
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