Oh Babysteps, I cringed when I read your post. How horrible!!!

I had the same problem in both ears and went straight to an Ear, Nose, and Throat specialist.

He had both ears flushed out in less than 5 minutes. He even had a chair specially made to make it easier for him to do it.

How are you doing with your depression as the day progresses?

Wishing you some relief and here are some comforting hugs