I like quiet.......I also like 0 to 1% drama in my life today. I cannot totally escape the drama, but I can keep it to a bear minimum.......if I do the work and the work is "asking inside" and internally communicating.

From the first time I asked inside, I wrote the answers down. I have been writing "for affect" ever since.

I started the healing process from that point on. My biggest hang up was, PTSD was OK to have (for me) but, I danm sure did not want D.I.D... I would not wish D.I.D. on my worst enemy. A certain portion of my brain was telling me " I did'nt have it".

Unfornately, due to the specific test for D.I.D. that was administered, the rest of my brain, just could not deny the facts anymore.

From that point on, I would here myself say "I dont have this", but the truth is, I would (and still) "ask inside" and internally communicate anyway.

For many years I sat still every morning and intrduced myself to me. Some days it would take four, five ,six hours.

Today, I sat still for about an hour..........and "asked inside".....