Thank you Vicki

I understand what you said about feeling angry. I do too. I am angry with lots of people who did not see Little Caroline - or did not choose to see her - and who did not take any notice of how sad and scared she was. I know they should have seen.
I am angry with people who still think it is OK to hurt my friends.
I am sometimes andgry with Caroline and LIttle Caroline because they let people hurt them.
I am angry with the people who make other people sad on purpose.

But you are right, I don't want to hurt people. Or I do, sometimes, but I am not going to. B ecause, Like you say, that makes me as bad as them.

My T said I need to get my anger out. But Caroline is scared of that. She thinks if she lets me out I will really hurt p[eople and do bad things. I'm still not sure about that but I am coming out in ways that she feels OK with. Because I don't want to hurt her any more than she has been hurt already.
Yesterday we were fighting, I think. That's why everything was so hard with T and with the dr. I wanted to come out and she didn't want me to and she got very upset and scared. But the new medicine we have is helping us to talk to each other, to understand each other and I think she trusts me more now. She has said I can write but not do anything else yet. I am glad she is not shutting me up all the time now.
Shula