I had a dream last night that the plates underneath the earth of cracked apart, in the dream I'm trying to get to T's house but its to unsafe and I cant, and I see this small man in passing and his one of T's clients also and I suddenly feel less needy, I begin to punish him and tell him how much closer I am to T then he, and his all jealous and hurt and that makes me feel much better...I keep going back to this small man whose leaning on an newpaper stand and I never see his face but am very aware of his anger and greed and envy...cripes thats just how I feel toward T's family this xmas...