Hi Adele
Lots to think about here.

I'm glad you liked my cuddle. I still find cuddles a bit scary. Because it is my job to be angry, I have to stand back a bit from people.

Yes, I don't know what it is about. Especially when people use parts of your friendship and turn them against you. That makes me REALLY angry. Caroline is angry with herself when a friendship stops. But I am angry with the other person most. Because I know she tried really hard.
I picked my own name. I went and found a name that means what I am. It also means that Caroline is letting me have my say. She didn't want to before and that is why she was so unhappy and upset yesterday. We were fighting. But now she is letting me have a little bit of space, in words. Only here and in her journal. but I can have my voice. That is why she has let me have a name. She knows she can't put the lid on me any more. I can't shout like you can, or kick or scream or be cheeky. But I can say what I think now.

Shula