Today we are alone at work. Of course when a person has DID, they are never alone. I like that in a way. My alters comfort me when we are alone with our ghosts.

Little One came out for a bit. Just enough to tell me some helpful advice about not getting upset if a friend does not respond as promptly as I think they should to an email. It helps having the wisdom of an eight year old handy! :-)

I feel Mick trying to keep from getting angry at my mom for blaming the abuse my ex husband put me through on his pain pills. Urrrrrrrrr. No - it was not the pills - the man is a $%$#)$#@ !!!

Want to ge happy now -

Trying to think of what I need to do for my career and for work - what I need to learn.

Still have no motivation at all in life - Wonder when that will come back to me...

Considering theray for next year. Insurance naturally limits sessions to only 2x a month. WTF do they know about those of us who live day to day trying to heal from abuse most of the adjusters have never even thought about!!!

Want to see T for a few more weeks in a row - but will that leave us short at the end of the year? Will we all be better on the inside at the end of 6 months if we go every week? Wish insurance would give 25 sessions per alter! Now THAT may help out. Mick wants to have her own time - and I told her she could. And T agrees we need to address that part of us since it holds the most anger. But Mick also stays furthest in the background and does not want to appear to "hog" the limited session time we have.

Just needed to get this out --- want to go forward in healing.