I had this dream, and I just can't shake the feelings it left me with. In it my T told me she doesn't want to see me anymore because I am too needy and call her too much, and she doesn't know how to help me anymore.

It was weird because in with that part of the dream I was also knitting a sweater, I don't think I was knitting it for T but I was just working on it, and I made a huge mistake in the knitting and had to rip it all out, and I was really upset about that, too.

And I was so angry and upset and sad about the whole thing with T that I was trying to hit and kick the walls and doors of the place we were at, which wasn't her office or any place I recognize, but it was like I was under water, my kicks and punches didn't have any strength in them by the time they connected to the wall it would just be like a soft slap, and that was so frustrating, too, because I wanted to punch holes in the walls, LOL!

I just woke up with such intense feelings of rejection and abandonment, and frustration, and I feel so rotten and bad and dirty and alone and...YUCK.