I've spent 3 days home, while 95% of the year I hardly spend 24 hrs out of my shop.
I am very frustrated because while I normally think I could do a lot of creative and pleasurable things with some spare time, I found myself void and hesitating about everything. I reverted to just mending the room, just to make sure my time was not completely wasted.
Probably I should just be happy taht I HAVE a job, but I have to realize that if one DOES a job almost every waking hour, he finally BECOMES his job. I fear i AM my job
That is because I can't reward myself from my job, I do good things but can't get satisfaction from it. I should change this, but however I greatly improved in the last year, my depressive attitude prevents me from taking serious steps

I apologize with those who have no job at all and are in dire straits. Thank you for reading. But please spend your time replying to someone with worse problems.