(((((((((((((((((Dream))))))))))))))))))

I can relate so much to what you experienced. During my first year in therapy, I found it really, really, REALLY hard to be around my mom. I was changing and she didn't like it, I was angry about how I've always been treated by her and it was hard to mask that...there were so many things that made it feel horrible.

And yes, it is hard to be away from the comforting, caring, loving, attentive, accepting presence of T when we're in such hard situations. I get that too.

I will say it's getting easier. Maybe it's because I'm more comfortable in myself, and more confident in the changes I've made...so she doesn't have the power to affect me like she used to. I'm not sure. Time has definitely made things easier than they were when I was still new to therapy.

Do you get to see T this week? I'm glad you feel so cared for by her...there is a lot of potential for healing in a good therapy relationship.

big hugs to you