Thanks everyone. And yes, she is a certified sex therapist. That is why I chose her. I have an addictive personallity and I am now thinking she takes advantage of that. As I said I have seen her on and off. It just occurred to me that she emails me to ask me how I am doing, say happy birthday or something when I have not been there for a while, then next thing you know and I end up going back. This all just has wrong written all over it. I really think I posted all this just to give myself a kick in the ***. She has been good for me with dealing with anxiety and addressing my addiction but somewhere along the line in recent times something changed and I am not sure when or why. Is it possible transferance happens the other way? The therapist falls for the patient? Not that I want that, just waxing philisophical. Thank you again everyone