I'm no dream interpreter, but here's my take:

You are worried about being too needy for your T to handle. To you, being needy is a mistake, something that messes up your therapy, and needs to be fixed. One way for that problem not to exist anymore is for your T to fire you. No therapy, no problem.

You feel powerless, over both your sense of neediness and your own emotions. You feel like you can't change your environment, and even though you feel so strongly, those emotions don't make the changes you want. BUT you also didn't destroy anything, which probably would have set your T off, so perhaps it shows that you have more control than you think.

My apologizes for being way off base if I am. I am in dream interpretation mode, having just woken up with a bizarre dream myself.

And I so know what you mean about waking up feeling horrible after a dream. Having a bad dream can really set my day off balance.