Zooropa... When you dream do you ever find that you brain makes little adjustments to the dream as it unfolds? Sometimes, mine does...kind of like a rewind...edit...replay dream sequence. When I've had a recurring nightmare this sometimes happens. Eventually I edit the dream enough that it goes a way. IDK maybe I'm just weird. Anyway, if you can do that... maybe you could start knitting again and this time turn it into a safety net for you to land in as you leap in therapy.