I know its hard, I never knew I had an ED but I knew I had a fear of food, Many people in my family are either alcoholics or drug addicts so Food was my choice of drug and from the sexual abuse I went to food..if I got fat no man would want to touch me.. and then I became afraid of food when I wanted to lose weight, Im over weight and have lost ALOT so far but it doesnt seem to feel that way and I cant see the difference most days, its fustrating as hell and I do that too, binge eat at night time even if its a apple or a sandwich the guilt eats at me all night long and I feel like a big cow and then I dont eat all the next day to make up for it. I know the right things to do, I know how to do it healthy but my brain and anxiety just wont let me do it.

Take Care and know that you are not alone.