that is an excellent way to look at it, chaotic! I have only had this dream the one time, but if I do have it again I will see if I can change it around. I think the key now is to try to talk about it with my T, but really just knowing what subconscious fears led to the dream has helped a lot.
I feel better about it, understanding what is going on in my head, knowing it's that lost and abandoned little girl inside of me, trying to avoid being alone and abandoned again. I acknowledge her pain and her fear and that makes it better, somehow.
It moves me one step further along the path of being able to be ok on my own, if that makes sense. Someday I will be all I need, I will not act and react out of this core fear of abandonment and rejection. I hope.