Short note to thank everyone for the comments and helpful tips and thoughts, greatly appreciated. Lots to think about. I have tried and will continue to try to be stronger and do things by myself, but, maybe the examples I used are not the best, the job search is mine and i should be on top of that, so is getting my drivers license. I've felt overwhelmed and alone, and not feeling comforted by the one I love and do everything for...that hurts more than anything else.

We do go out etc, we are staying with her relatives so she has a social support network, she has more friends in this country than me, I go to church so she has that support as well...so at times I feel I do all this for her, and feel she can't just at minimum comfort me. Maybe i need to be stronger and not expect strength from my partner/wife? Goes back to expectations. I will try to talk to her one of these days...is it best to practice what I will say or speak from the heart? Although I fear speaking from the heart/mind might end up hurting her too much. I don't want to be hurt, annoyed or anything by her, I love her intensely, she's really a very loving person.

Take care, and thanks for the thoughts again.