i agree, sexual abuse and ed often go hand in hand. i know when i'm really scared by men, i get so sick to my stomach that i can't force food down without it coming back up. freedomseeker, i wish the battles connected with anorexia had an end in sight, but for me so far it seems like it's going to be a lifelong battle. i think it depends on how soon one gets help. for me the anorexia went on for twelve-fifteen yrs. before i hit bottom (hospitalized), got help, and finally went into "remission." most of the time, i accept the daily mental challenges (those that you speak of) and try to just think about today. the "one day at a time" really does work if you can grab hold of it. during the days that are especially overwhelming or when i start to slip up and head downhill, finding support is crucial. i'm glad to hear that you have some support--here is one place to run to when you start to notice the "red flags." it's during those times that i often will post and people reach out to me. (thank you all for being there) i hope you find the same as well. from one to another...cat ((((fs)))))