Rayna…
It’s posts like yours are a ray of hope to people you may never meet.
You are indeed blessed.

My favorite part was
“I turned it over, and I quit fighting happiness”

The Buddhist monks tell me that by feverishly grasping after something, I only keeps it at a distance. I only frustrate myself. And I do not get the things I so desperately seek. I needed to stop fighting for happiness, stop trying to catch it, just let it wash over me. I don’t hold happiness like a beautiful gem covetously buried deep in a secret pocket, it passes through me. Who knew?

Richard

p.s.
this site needed your positive outlook, thanks.