I'm sorry if this touches a nerve for many. I am completely broken and sad. I was the other woman with a married man. I'm not looking for a lecture, as I'm currently questioning what made me have a relationship with a married man, what made me believe and feel I had a right to be with him when he wasn't happy with his marriage but didn't leave

I cannot believe how much this ending hurts, not only not having him in my life but the dreams I had for us. These dreams weren't all me, he encouragd and made the plans as well.

I've been through so much already in my life, I keep getting knocked down, I don't know if I can get up from this one.

I went to the doctor today, looking for something to numb me. He gave me sleeping pills and I've made an appointment with a therapist for next week. I have so many issues, I don't even know where to start with him.

How does this work, do I spill everything to him, do I let him ask me questions...obviously there's something wrong with me to partake in what I did.