Hey FeelingSad,

You shouldn't dread New Years, just think its a start of a new and better year for you. I know that's what I am thinking. I am turning 25 in Feb and want to, to celebrate a quarter of a century go hand-gliding which looks soooo cool!!! I thought that could be something I could work towards as I am scared of heights etc. I hate New Years as my Dad always starts fights with me. So I am kinda wanting to stay away from the family for a couple of days. Last Hogmanay I worked NightShift just so I could escape the fighting for at least 1 year and he started on me when I got up for my shift that night. So this year I have decided not to go anywhere near my family for Hogmanay. I will visit them on New Year's Day though as I am working a backshift at work. I said to my mum that I would pop into my Aunt's after work where they will all be. So I am not totally abondoning them altogether. I am just taking a wee breather for a change.

Just make a decision about the New Year. Do something different and spontaeous.

I know I will still eb finding the New Year hard to handle etc but I am trying to stay positive about it. ROLL ON 2010!!!!