The affair went on for quite a while, started in mid-2003, she found out late 2003. We still talked, still spent time together. He and I stopped talking for a month or so, then started again, I don't think she knew we were still talking, although, I can't say whether she even cared at this point. He was supposed to move out August 1, 2005, I guess once reality hit, they decided to work it out or at least try.

Again, I'm not proud of this, and I can imagine the names or thoughts running through people's heads, but I believe him, I loved him with all my heart, more than I have anyone.

I certainly hope somehow we can all learn from this, both betrayed spouse and myself.

you say it can be hard?

pouring my heart out here, but I know the issues with me, and there's probably so many more I don't know about

briefly

adopted
lost my mother when I was 5
lost my father when I was 16
sexual molested by a brother
drank more than I should have(made some poor choices)
divorced a kind, loving, beautiful man who I didn't love(I still think that was right)...instead of even trying to work it out with him, didn't give him a chance
have huge resentment issues

hey, anybody want to help me figure out how many issues I have?

I still have a sense of humour though

always felt alone