Thread: hello heres me
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Old Dec 28, 2009, 03:51 PM
disaster girl disaster girl is offline
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Just thought I'd say hi.
New to using more than just the quizzes on psych central.
Diagnosed with AVPD among other things.
I'm 25. Haven't worked in 3 years rarely leave the house. I'm 25 have a college bachelors degree... its so strange how , though still difficult, I could manage supporting myself through 4 and a half years of college but I got hospitalized right before graduation and since... in the "real world" I am just about as non functional a person as one can be without going so far as to be trouble for anyone. Just for myself. If life were a university where my grocery stores my isolated janitors job, my laundry, my bank, my home ( a single occupancy dorm room) were all in one easily walkable location and all that was expected of me was to show up and pay attention in my desk seat or with my mop and go home to my locked door I believe I could become president! :P

Unfortunately for me and my severe - growing more severe as the isolation grows and independence decreases - Life is not a university. Life involves new things... lots of them... like learning to drive now that I can't get to everything by foot... applying for jobs and doing interviews... now that I can't just get placed via work-study... expectations that I will use my hard earned bachelors in a career that fits my skill set... when all I want to do is clock in and be by myself and come home from that job i'd be overqualified for. It involves cities and bus routes and maps and strangers galore and big grocery stores and... well... you get the picture.

Ive just recently started with a place for job rehab. Helps folks with all sorts of disabilities and its been hard having zero income for three years despite a bachelors degree. And sooner rather than later those defferment options are running out on my loans I have to pay them back which means I have to get a job which means I have to be able to leave the house get around on the bus pass an interview and be "out there". We will see...