Bless your heart, jennie! You should not have to explain your delusions in therapy. Your therapist should know what delusions are, and she can explain this phenomena to your husband. I know it's not particularly reassuring to say "don't be embarrassed" by your psychotic episodes. But there are so many of us. My worst one was at work, when I came to believe that I was supposed to take a shower and get on a girl-scout bus to travel to some event. I was discovered by co-workers only barely known to me, completely naked and trying to bathe in the ladies room sink. From these co-workers, I repeatedly demanded to know where the shower was. I did not even partially come to my senses until I saw my supervisor and the dept. head approaching me determinedly, a bed sheet stretched out between them. In this, they wrapped me tightly and waddled me off to the psychiatric hospital. Yes, I was embarrassed, but it passed. You seem to have excellent insight into the fact that you have delusions. This insight, and the correct psychiatric meds, if needed, will be your biggest allies against the delusions that you despair of. Take heart, knowing you have come to the right place for sharing and caring in regard to the psychotic experience. Please continue to post here and feel free to PM me if I can help in any regard. I worked in the psychiatric field for 25 years, and I have additionally had a number of psychiatric hospitalizations. I would love to be of any help to you that I could be. Caring about You ~ billieJ