deedee's hiding, vicki is mad and hurting, others are wanting to be heard and i'm getting the fallout from it all. i am so tired and so drained. i'm feeling like i can't hold it all together much longer. bits and flashes of graphic memory. like some kind of fast movie too fast to catch what anything really is. eyes open or closed it just flashes on.

have my final tonight in sign language. gotta be able to focus. supposed to go to the funeral home now wife of one of my H co-workers died-cancer 52--my age. i think i will go hide.
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