Hi, lily333ann!
One person's "weird and ugly" is another's "interesting and unique."
As a recluse, I have little useful to say about socializing. One old piece of advice I know to be mostly accurate, however, runs something like this: "Show interest in others, and they'll show interest in you."
I'm sorry you're isolated right now. I hope growing independence will take you to friendlier places.
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My dog

mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.