I'm really stressing out about NY! Every year I'v had to spend it alone and every ny I hope for a better year, were I will achieve and sort out everything that is wrong in my life, like beeing alone. I never get to fix anything and I haven't had a life for a very long time now. I write up those TO DO lists but when I try I never get to do them all.
I'm terrible at making up my mind up, about anything, as I'm always anxious that I will mess it up or make the wrong choice, so that doesn't help. How can I change it this time, so it doesn't repeat it self. Please don't just tell me to do it!!! I'm so fed up of myself. Can't stand another year of things going wrong again!!!