soooo...found out on Christmas that my boyfriend cheated on me with my best friend. This made me sick to my stomach (literally) about seven times and resulted in a 3-day long weekend of tranquilizer-popping, binge-drinking, chain-smoking, and fasting. This was capped off Monday morning with a massive panic attack resulting from my inability to walk up stairs without feeling like fainting. I'm not sure what to do about this. I think everyone deserves a second chance but the last boyfriend that I took back after cheating did it again a year later and it hurt way worse. I thought we had a perfect relationship. A good, healthy, mature relationship for once. Now it just seems like it will always be tainted. I don't know if I can forgive him. I want to, but I can't seem to look him in the eye. What's worse is that since we've been together i've totally undid all of the work I put in for four month at the gym. Stopped exercising and started eating like a pig (even breaking veganism to accomodate his cooking) because I wanted to spend more time with him and he kept telling me I looked beautiful. I suppose I let myself get "fat and happy" in a relationship. So here I am, freaking out because I can't trust him, and i've gained 13 lbs in the process. I took the day off work yesterday and today I have to work for 12 ****ing hours. This is entirely daunting. Luckily my schedule is light, but this just leaves more time to think about him and her together. Has anyone had a similar experience? What did you do? Please help. Right now all I want to do is curl up in bed and sleep all this weight off.