Thanks for all the nice words, guys. Yes, we have discussed the topic sober. Yes, there is a support group roughly 30 minutes from where I live on Wednesday night but i'm not sure that i'm ready to engage in something like that. I'd much rather have a personal counselor but I can't afford one so i've more-or-less just been trying to wing-it on my own with online support like this site and opening up to friends more. As far as the "great guy", evidence has proven otherwise over the weekend. See the new thread I posted titled "trigger".