That was a wonderful post. It takes alot to tell all of those things I know. Me, I did not drink and use drugs to feel OK with other ppl, but to hide from myself and the way my life was going. Just think, doing all of that to make my life better.. After many OD's and days of drinking on end, I got on heroin and then was lost also. This had to stop I knew and went cold turkey without anyone helping me. I would just tell others I was not feeling well, sick or something. But I made it through it just like you have. Days turn into weeks, weeks to months, months into years. All of it just a day at a time.

Allan