Thankyou Friends.
I'm actually starting to feel ok about it.And that it May be a Positive step.I've had a REALLY difficult week with many upsets and it would of been nice to come home and speak with someone instead of dealing with it on my own in a cold empty house.
And then theres the constant panic attacks,terrified someones going to break in.
I had a really bad night last night and no phone or internet to seek help.
I thought someone had got in the house.I was so scared I couldn't breathe.I kept telling myself I was safe and it was my mind playing tricks.but a few months ago someone did try and get in and I thought it was my mind playing tricks At the last minute I realised it was real and called the police.they caught the guy in my garden.And thats after a more serrious incident that took place in my home.

I dont socialise,I dont leave my house unless i really have to.I'm scared of people.So i am pretty scared of moving somewhere there is others.
But not just that the staff will really see whats it like for me everyday,i do my best to carry on and i hide things.But people think im really ill now imagine what they would think seeing me 24/7.
I Have to give up nearly everything i own.

I see my Care Co-ordinator this week we have something serrious to talk about as well as this.
At the moment it really feels like the whole world is against me