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Originally Posted by zoombug
I'm not sure what to say, this is my first time on a Forum. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 with mixed and rapid cycling episodes last Tuesday. i haven't stopped crying in over a month. I only discovered I am bipolar after ruining my marriage and my family in an Extreme hypersexual Manic Episode. He left me and the kids yesturday. We have been best friends since we were 15, and I killed him with my affair. I feel like my heart should just stop beating any second because it's so broken. It took me a week to come down from being Manic and realize what I had done. I don't understand how I can live my life for almost 40 years and in one month so quickly turn into someone I don't even know, someone I hate! almost 20 years of marriage and our two kids lives ruined in the span of one month.
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(((((( Zoombug )))))))
Again: Don't give up.
If your husband left only yesterday, there might still be hope to save your marriage. Mania can cause so much damage in people's lives before being diagnosed and treated. You are ill. It was not the normal you doing what you did. You are at the beginning of treatment for this illness. There is much to learn and much healing to go through. Don't stop talking to your husband. Talk to your kids. There are programs for the families of people who suffer from Bipolar illness to help them understand it. It is one of the most difficult mental illnesses to treat but it does not have to destroy your life. Get your family involved in learning as much as they can.
Try not to beat yourself up too badly. I know the shock of what has happened is devastating. But to continue to beat yourself up will not help your recovery. Work with your psychiatrist and a therapist and also, keep posting here because there are a lot of us here who will support you while you work through this.
Hugs.
