I want to write and share a lot of things that have been happening in my life. I know we have different beliefs but I would really like this thread to stay on the positive side of examining these issues. These are the hot topics in my life. As per usual the wise one is very long winded.

First of all my friends who are fundamentalist christians and who have 7 children now. I was laid up all of last week and could not stand sit, drive. I did not get to see the new baby who is today 9 days old. So yesterday on my way home from work with moderate pain I stopped and I found two oldest children distressed beyond belief. Little one was being rushed to a bigger hospital for ICU with unknown probs. Oldest were taking care of babies. They were scared and just plain upset because mom had shared something with them that was really her own terror and post partem stuff. Alas, they are pacing and on the phone trying to reach grandma. I stay for two hours reading to the little ones and loving on them. I then decide to go bring my groceries home and come back to stay with kids till grandma from out of state can be reached and get there. I stopped at town clerk's hous and told her that baby was very ill and that I did not think there was food in the house and that I was staying till grandma could come. She called their church.

I went home and fed the dogs and put perishables away and left note for family. I came back and within minutes people were coming out of the woodwork with food and love. One man who the 17 year old boy refers to as surrogate grandpa came and was able by his presence to calm this child by speaking of man things and just being there. I was touched. I did the mother things, read a million books and tucked in a lot of kids and then the 12, almost 13 year old little mother had a break down. She had been there with dad to deliver baby. Midwife came 15 minutes later. Also, I fed kids fresh fruit when I came home. They devoured. I do not think they get fresh foods.

Grandma came late and I filled her in and waited for her to call her daughter. Daughter is over a generation younger then I. Grandma is 10 years older then I. Baby was stable, I went home.

In the morning the 17 year old called me to fill me in and later in the morning I calle and found that baby was stabalized some. May exit ICU.

So I stopped on the way home and spent time with the kids and talked with the 12-almost 13 year old little mother. She is happy in her role and VERY VERY good.

Okay, so we talk about human overpopulation. Hmm, seems this family gives back what they get. I do not share their beliefs. But they live in a world that I share in which reaching out to your neighbors, friends, strangers, loving is most important.

We are a culture that disappoints me as we ignore eachother's needs and go off on our own ways and do not pay attention or reach out to eachother. It is the way we live in our world that matters.

My friend is dying. Worse and worse cancer but he keeps fighting. And I did not have the courage to go see him this week. My T tells me it's okay as I was trying to save energy for my self. I am feeling that I need to be there for him.

So the big question is how far are we willing to go for our fellow humans? Even animals? We are each going to have a different place. But I say that giving humans overtake the cost of taking humans. We can change the world.

Yeah yeah, I am being all fluffy. But I believe it and I wish we could all be loving and kind and giving of ourselves, It would make the world a better place.

So then there is this 86 year old who was beaten, molested and never nurtured. She is my client and I am dealing with really hard stuff. She is at the end of her life and needs to feel nurtured and protected. Can WE as a community finally give her some peace in her life? Can we hold her and nurture her? Can the end of her life be more at ease then up until now? It takes a community and I want so much to love her and take care of her and help her to for once in her life feel safety and love.