I'm trying to stop smoking, cuz I really really need to. i already need heart surgery for other reasons....
but it's really hard on my system and i don't get any support from anyone except my little girl. and i can't like vent with her or anything....for some reason smoking helps us with the feelings of overwhelm, the urge to si, the wanting to excape, the vow to be wrong and let daddy be right- or anyone else for that matter. i'm trying to make this change because its what i want. it's not for anybody else. i most of all, know how badly i need my heart and how it is already suffering.
it's so hard to change and do good things for yourself. anyway, just thought i'd share. prism