I have an annual physical exam in January. And of course I have to have the usual Pap Test...etc. And because I am paranoid about my health and well being to the point these thoughts make me feel mentally ill.

I wanted to make sure that my vaginal and **** area looked clean and tidy for the doctor since he will be very close to these parts of my body.

I examined my **** area with a little mirror and a flash light.

I do have a history of hemorrhoids. And when I looked at my **** area I noticed some buldges near the opening of my ****. These buldges were normal skin colour with no signs of irration or infection. And I have never had **** intercourse and I have always had protected sexual intercouse.

I went to my regional medical health website and researched hemorrhoids. They had video and text explainations of what hemorrohoids are and what they look like. Mine look like prolapsed hemorrhoids (external hemorrhoids).

I know I shouldn't look at my **** or vagina for that matter and try to dx myself since I am not a doctor. And now I am just scared. I am worried that I may have a teriminal condition or something that isn't cureable.

But I think I should go with what the experts on this regional medical health website say rather than my own paranoia.