Possum, Sparrowstail and Anderson,

Your affirmations mean a great deal to me in light of this internal dialogue. Seems like we were taking stock of our situation and when that happens there is a lightness as fewer all are talking at once.

Just not wanting to leave any of them out but sometimes actually forgetting some of them exist. Taking gentle authority over them with inclusiveness and 'good' familial way. I'm not great with the 'family' word but could use hive or some other way of working together.

It is a better family (perhaps like a bears den or flock (family) of crows (that be what I am)) way with all your help here. It really is amazing to know of all your experiences and that we all at different stages and all have our own ways. It gives me confidence that I can do this!

Pain only comes when the new ones arrive on scene and we have to almost start at beginning with them like with Chicklet but so far treading water and even coming ashore. Mixed metaphors but we bery tired. Didn't seems to take as long this time.

Must be brave again...for next round.

Thanks again,