Again, thank you for sharing Rayna, and you too Allan.

Y'all are right... Recovery isn't a walk in the park a lot of times. Some days I wake up feeling refreshed and in the best of moods and rarely think of using that day. Then there's some days I wake up and it's all I think about all day and wonder, "Maybe just one hit of meth will make me feel better.", or, "Maybe one drink will make me feel better and I can go back to sobriety tomorrow.", it doesn't work that way. When in need during our tough times through recovery is when we need to lean on our sponser, our clean friends, and others around us the most.

Sure, there's bad days and there will always be days that using is all you can really think about, but those days can make us stronger in recovery if we let it. Sobriety is worth every painful urge we get.