I have been in a relationship for 3 years w/ a man diagnosed w/ bipolar, add, and ocd. He has issues w/ self mutilation and suicidal ideation. We have had ups and downs and I thought we were on the right track with him going to therapy 1 a week and being on meds. during my recent pregnancy, problems arose with drugs and drinking. We now have a 3 month old child I am raising on my own. I have discovered that he became involved with women he met on porn chat sites. Engaging in sexual behavior that makes me want to vomit. He has been using cocaine since spring time and evidently was giving it to my teenage kids from a previous marriage. It culminated into a suicide attempt by him the first of December and all of this info came out then. He voluntarily committed himself for a week and was in a partial program for 2 weeks. He wants me back and says he will do whatever he needs to do. My family and friends do not want me to even be talking to him after all the hurt he has caused and damage he has done. I love this man with all my heart and I am struggling to deal with what he has done. I have looked into his eyes and the man I loved was gone. He became psychotic and aggressive. Now, i look into his eyes and see he is back. I feel his pain and the torment he goes through every day with his disorder. I know the man he truly is would not have done the things he did. But the reality is that it happenned and I am struggling to deal with it. Please give me advice on how to come to terms with what he has done!!!